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Don't
delete this one; you'll laugh when you see the return message.
I would never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful life, and my
loving family
for less gray hair or a flatter belly. As I've aged, I've
become
kinder to myself, and less critical of myself.. I've become my
own
friend. I don't chide myself for eating that extra cookie, or for
not
making
my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that I didn't need,
but
looks so avant grade on my patio. I am entitled to a treat, to be messy,
to be
extravagant.
I have seen too many dear friends leave this world too soon; before
they
understood the great freedom that comes with aging.
Whose business is it if I choose to read or play on the computer until
4 AM and
sleep until noon? I will dance with myself to those wonderful
tunes of
the 60 &70's, and if I, at the same time, wish to weep over a lost
love.....
I will.
I will walk the beach in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging
body,
and will
dive into the waves with abandon if I choose to, despite the pitying
glances
from the jet set. They, too, will get old.
I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there again, some of life is just as
well
forgotten. And I eventually remember the important things.
Sure, over the years my heart has been broken. How can your heart not
break
when you lose a loved one, or when a child suffers, or even when
somebody's
beloved pet gets hit by a car? But broken hearts are what
give us
strength and understanding and compassion. A heart never
broken
is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect.
I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turning gray,
and to
have my youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves on
my face.
So many have never laughed, and so many have died before their hair
could
turn silver.
As you get older, it is easier to be positive. You care less
about
what
other people think... I don't question myself anymore. I've
even
earned the right to be wrong.
So, to answer your question, I like being old.. It has
set me free.
I like
the person I have become. I am not going to live forever,
but
while I am still here, I will not waste time lamenting what
could
have been, or worrying about what will be. And I shall eat
dessert every single day (if I feel
like it).
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