In #115 of our Constitutions we read
"There are situations, whatever our age, when a special call of God may come to us through the experience of certain deprivations such as illness, decline of physical energy or the lessening of responsibilities. Our response to such situations cannot be improvised, but is prepared throughout our whole life; in prayer we discover that the fidelity of God dwells at the very core of our weakness."
I think a special call from God has come to me during this frustrating illness. It is a call to live united to Jesus , trusting His Heart and forgetting self so that I may choose only what pleases Jesus.